"You cannot unsay a cruel word."
Overheard in the old farmer's barn
This one is a dagger in my heart. A cruel word is a dreadful weapon……and the unintended cruel word pierces, through and through, and it hurts the speaker more, if the speaker has a heart.
I have had such a searing cruel word in my mind, in my memory, in my heart, for many years. I know the old farmer is right. I have apologized to the one I love, whom I so cruelly and casually wounded so long ago…..that did not unchain me from my memory……I was repentant but not relieved…
Recently I have realized that a kind of expiation is possible…I'll have to wait a few more years, but I can bear it….in time, I know that I can remove this dagger, I can turn it into a fragile missile of love, I can toss it to a beautiful child and I know that will make the child laugh, and make a father happy, and make a somewhat lighter burden for a remorseful old man…
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